Mel-lO

Well, I had the most amazing weekend, and I don't think I'll ever come
down from this high. My bf had been planning this for a while, and it
was a complete surprise.

My bf refused to see my last week and it was
making me so sad. On Saturday I call him and he tells me that he's
running late, so I tell him I'm going to go get my nails done.
So I go, get my mani/pedi, and I call him a little after 12 noon, and
he tells me to come over. Traffic is bad, so he calls to ask me where
I am, and we meet up at the local bookstore.

and he picks me up and we drive a few blocks over to this GORGEOUS
park that had a waterfall setup too. He sets up a picnic with Dom
Periogne and chocolate covered strawberries and yummy finger sand-
wiches. I mean, he went all OUT. and we started eating. and he told
me that he had a present for me. he goes in his pocket and takes out
a ring box. now, i'm starting to get all happy, but then I realized
that many times women get excited about these things, and it turns
out to be a pair of earrings,ect.. so i wasn't setting myself up for
that. And i was cool. I open the box and its the key to his apt.
And I have to say, I was happy. hahah I was happy over a key!

Well, that's because I have been harassing him for a key to his apt
for many months now, and so this was unexpected, because I'd just
about given up.. so i was elated. So as I'm going on and on about the
key. He turns to me and says: "wow, well if you're so happy about that,
then you'll REALLY be happy about THIS." He gets down on one knee and
holds out the key and asks me to marry him. I of course scream. a lot.
and say yes. and kiss him. Yumm. It was wonderful. It was all I could
ask for and more.
So now I'm officially ENGAGED. I have a Fiance, and I've never been
happier :)

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i am honestly getting older by the second.
i came home after work, after doing a little browsing at barnes and
nobles downtown. i was wearing a cute sun dress kinda outfit, and
for some strange reason, when i'm at a book store, i want to be comfortable.
and jeans=comfort. so i didn't stay long. plus the fact that why is it that
young boys (17-20) try to hit on me wherever i go? do i look THAT young?
well, i made my way back onto the T and as soon as I got home,
i went to work on my room-- sorting thru all the
winter and summer stuff, i got thru about 3 hours of that, and managed to
do four loads of laundry, so i feel so accomplished, yet so tired.

when did my life become cleaning up my room and laundry? shouldn't i be
clubbing or bar-hopping? hahahah

actually i was invited out to a bar for thursday, but its so histerical
how my first thought was god, how late will i be getting home? hahahah
when did i start carrying rolaids in my purse? for fuk sake, i am only 26.
one good thing is that i have the sexual appetite of a 19 year old.
i look younger than i am. i get carded wherever i go.
i think pink is the most fantabulous color (in fact reese witherspoon's
character in legally blonde is my hero :P). i still believe in love at
first site and there being a fairy tale ending.

so i guess in some ways, i will always be young. some experiences do
change you, but maybe its for the better.

i started watching a campy updated version of one of my favorite novels:
"pride and prejudice". not quality, but semi-entertaining. i'm all about
true love fighting the odds. i'll talk more about that some other time, but
for now... i love thr quote:
: next to being married, a girl likes to be crossed in love a little now and then."
pride and prejudice
vol.II, ch,I

anyway, on to something modern:
i absolutely loved the episode of seinfeld where they decided to do a
wall o' neighbors. and jerry's picture looks like shit and all he wants to do
is rip it down. ahahhaha ahhahahah here's a momento:


on a yet, nother random note, i really really want a new laptop. i mean, i love
my laptop, but i love pretty, new things too, and i have been eyeing the "ibooks" for quite some time...
in the words of SJP: "hello lover"

it amazes me how with death comes realization and knowledge of self.
when my father died, there were so few people for me to count on
and depend on.
it never ceases to amaze me how scary and difficult experiences show you who
is truly there for you, who are the ones you can depend on, who actually care about you, ect...

ever just wake up one morning and realize that the people who you thought you could
always count on. the ones who would ALWAYS be there for you... well.. when you need them, they're
not there for you.
I learned that the hard way. and it wasn't just with my father's death...
just little things that add up to so much, like 'friends' dissing me on my
birthday, or not calling for weeks even when i have called to say that my father
just died, or not coming to the funeral, but coming up for a friend who you've only known
for 2 year's graduation party, when you've known me for 12 years....

so now i'm a little jaded, a little wiser, a little angrier, a little more honest...
but no longer a fool, no longer so sweet and suseptable.... i'm taking things at face value
and not thinking too highly of people because looks and words are deceptive and cunning...

i've also changed. i'm so aware of death now. losing a parent really and truly changes you.
i've become so aware of how easily you can die. how you will NEVER come back.
how you can't change things once your dead. how you need to forgive those that actually
matter in your life; how you need to floss everyday!
how you need to tell your family members and loved ones just how much they mean to you-- every day!
you need to take risks because you might loose the things and people that matter the most.
how you really need to take action. you have a dream... do it... or make a goal to do it...
do something or multiple things that you would NEVER ever have thought you could do...

its a power thing... the power to believe in yourself and be realistic and honest with yourself.
so here's to being honest, open and realistic...

sometimes i'm blown away by how much time can pass when you just
sit down and try to relax... but end up doing some major 'thinking'...

you know when you have so much on your mind and then boom...
time seems to fly. you lose track of it, or maybe it looses
track of you and before you know it... you've spent over an hour
contemplating life's greatest question... what gives?

a friend told me that i've changed today. that made me sad.
it wouldn't have been so bad if she had looked as if it had
been a good thing, but she didn't... and i didn't want her to
elaborate. so my reply was simply: " we all change. "

but now i sit here and wonder in what ways have i changed?
have others noticed this change? do these changes make me
a better 'me'? did i need to change? do i want to keep
these changes? *sigh* its all so complicated...
so as i end this post i wish i could take that hour back
and recollect my thoughts...

one thing i know that hasn't changed... i'm still a complicated being.

i want this.


i love pretty things.
i often find myself searching for gorgeous items when my spirit is low.
pretty shiny things make me happy.

How is it possible that music just captures the essence of your
feelings. *sigh*
I put in a cd that my bf had copied for a friend and had made me a copy.
after i pressed play... i was greeted by one of the most beautiful, haunting song.
and its been on repeat for the past 30 minutes...

Valentine:

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
But in my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time...
You're all I need, my love, my valentine

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
'cause all I need is you, my valentine
You're all I need, my love, my valentine